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09.10.10 00:30

Lately, I’ve been filming “Loving You Ten Million Times” so everyday felt like it was lived to the fullest.
The atmosphere at the filming place is good too, everyone treats me well.. The atmosphere is really happy ㅋㅋ

This is a drama that came after much awaiting.. (T^T)

All this while, the petals who were hoping for my acting performances must be feeling really happy right

However.. After such a long time, the visual of me as an actor..
Pig (-┏)

Since debut till now, I’ve gained around 7kg
I really.. I’m really those kind that doesn’t gain much weight.. In the end, is it due to my weight gain.. Or is it my age..

Thus, I shall go on a diet! Diet!
Firstly, with alcohol, who is my friend, I broke off our friendship (-┏)

Even if I don’t like drinking party, I like alcohol..
Being alone at home, opening a can of tuna and drinking soju sip by sip, then falling asleep..

All these.. As age catches up.. I realise the good points and bad points of it

The side of my cold, sharp, uncouth and frustrating character decreases
While the time spent thinking alone comfortably increases, I became more quiet and spoke less..

Adding on to the fact that my schoolmates already have kids.. I even have a nephew ㅋㅋ

‘Ah, I’m already that old..’

It made me have such a mindset ^-^

Only a few years ago, I don’t really like kids at all.. Now, it’s like I’ll even hug the kids first..
Particularly.. Many of my friends who are far (?) from those model students have became parents and the look of them being responsible for the household..
It’s feels really awesome.. It makes me envy as well.. ㅠㅠ

While drinking soju with Gomthra whom I’m basically very close to.. We really have a lot in common..
The relationship between us immediately became best of best*..
Thus, these two young men decided to quit drinking and go on a diet with such huge determination

Me who eats 5 meals a day will not eat anything after 6pm, will quit drinking, and doesn’t eat much sweet and greasy stuffs to begin with..
It’s quite tiring ㅋㅋ Doesn’t take the elevator, walking up and down the stairs is really tiring.. Thankfully, recently I’ve gotten better with my reflexㅋㅋ

Minihompy is closed, I don’t even meet up with people.. Doesn’t even go on show, as well as not going on radio shows..
Just like this, I’ve placed some informants in this place ^-^

I’ve always left messages at Kiseki only and thus it makes me feel sorry towards other sites that praise me..
It can’t be help, my fingers hurt ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
But, I know everything that’s going on ^-^
Where the supporters are coming from.. What the people from elsewhere are sending to my hometown and such..
I would really like to arrange all the fan pages about me in a list but if one is left out accidentally.. it’ll be aweful ㅋㅋ

Fan taken videos, photos.. messages.. I’ve almost seen all
Of course, my parents had read and seen even more.. ㅋㅋ
Even though they really don’t know much about computer, sites about me, they know it even better than me ㅋㅋㅋ

This period while filming ‘Loving You Ten Million Times’, I only hope to learn about acting serenely and become more mature
To those who wish to see me in other aspects, though I’m not quite sure what to say..
In such a fast pace life, there are many times where I feel tired.. On broadcast or radio shows, there isn’t any more new things for me to show.. (Drained of items ㅠㅠ)

Even though this excuse is not really an excuse.. In this new acting, my image is extremely overwhelming (-┏)
Even while drinking with tall and handsome Kang JiHwan hyung and musically talented JungMo

“Heechul ah.. You’re really powerful;; Really unique;;”

“No ㅡㅡ; That’s just an image from broadcast ㅋㅋ”

“That’s not true;; Looking at the real you, you’re even more unique;; You’re just like an actor;;”

“Heechulie Hyung is even more worse before debutㅎㅎ Really, just like thisㅎㅎ Devil, Devil ㅎㅎ”

“(-┏)”

Ah.. Just being close and trying to be close ㅋㅋ

But really, a lot have changed.. Image itself is really..
I think it’s karma. Thus, I’ll begin living modestly from now

While with manager hyung and boss-teacher.. The topic of mysticism came up not quite at the right time..

“Teacher, I’ll focus on acting for the moment”

“( ⊙_⊙)?”

“It was the very first beginning of my journey and I wish to continue walking down it again”

“Don’t say such things~ Why are you always not doing things that you’re good at~ I think you’ll become a great MC”

“But the ups and downs of my feeling are too much ㅡㅡ”

“That’s because you’re still young~ As you become older, you’ll learn more things and gain more experience and then it’ll be alright~ Acting is good too but never forgo being an MC”

“I want to be an actor first! I debuted as an actor.. but no one knows that I’m an actor ㅠㅠ”

Like this, like that.. Like a kindergarten kid unreasonably demanding to be able to focus on acting. Suddenly, I’m reminded of something my mom had said before

“If not for this company, which other company will take you in”

…………………………………………………..(-┏)

Huu.. looking at this right now, it looks like some essay ㅡㅡ
I need to make an immediate ending

Even if a cat lives like a rabbit, it is still a cat
Even if I’m as tender as the soft inari sushi**, I’m still me

Praise unconditionally, shut up and worship

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Ah, the feeling of this entry is good at the start.. ㅋㅋ In conclusion, it ended like this ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

* Best of Best is written in kr-eng romanization, lol.
** It’s actually 유부초밥 which is boiled rice wrapped in fried beancurd skin that is similar to the Japanese inari sushi.

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Yang DongGeun : I’m Bad
09.10.10 00:38

Unspeakable feeling of the king